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If I died tomorrow and I went to heaven Id try to kill myself there and see what happened after that. I would feel so useless and so drained that my life was nothing and a waste that I couldnt bare to live and have to tell people the nothing that I have done. My greatest accomplishment is nothing, my biggest fear is loneliness. My biggest mistake is that Im not the person who would make me happy. Im scared Ill never get to where I want to be in life. Wont be loved or anything. Isnt that most peoples fears?